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Home (live)

by 4 Track Phantoms

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This song is about running away from home.

All of my other recordings are made with a condenser mic and at least two vocal tracks. This one, however, is "live" with an 18.00 dynamic mic, (before I splurged on said condensor) and came out better than the more "produced" version. A one-track (and one take) wonder of sorts. I really tried to track it up a few times, but it never came out better than raw style.

This is how I sound in an unassuming room with mediocre acoustics, by myself, with no effects or reverb or additional tracks, one cheap 18.00 mic shared between voice and guitar. Live.

I don't know how else this song would sound. It is supposed to be lonely.

Lonely. If you happen to come from a broken home, or no home at all, or a home where you were not understood or respected, you might relate to this song. And it is very much intended to challenge the image of "home" that comes to most. Because what about someone like me, who came from a really, really broken home? What do we think of Hallmark cards and sitcoms and commercials and holidays and Mother's Day and Father's Day? We are really kind of lost in childhood, and we find solace in art and music and history in adolescence.

I wrote this song in my mid 20s when a hopeful reconnection with my mom ended in further sadness and loneliness. But the end theme is that even if you are not proud in proving your hurtful parents wrong in their expectations, meaning that you did well, but it doesn't change the fact they were cruel and unsupportive, you did good. There is no "home." There is no place where a battle to prove yourself ended well.

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Home

Leave me alone in my "cruelty"
I don't need to go home
I lose my mind I'm too "stupid" to find out
what you want me to be
You don't know who you're talking to
I don't know what I say
If you knew what I have, you would have all you want
and you wouldn't have to worry about me

Talk to me, I can't see
Come on have a heart
Don't you see how hard I'm trying
But I can't read your mind
I don't know what to say
I don't know what to do
How can I get through to you
I won't fight, that's not me
I will not take part

It's no wonder I have no peace
I'm not proud of proving you wrong

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released October 26, 2015
Vocals: Melancholy Rose
Guitars: Dee Sharpe

Artwork by Alphonse Mucha

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4 Track Phantoms San Clemente, California

New site with studio work is: cecily4.bandcamp.com

This site is 4 track demos. Hi, I'm Cecily, and this is my project, the 4 Track Phantoms, a kind of diary of a free range singer, songwriter, musician.
I write songs and record them playing all of the instruments myself on my 4 track cassette portable studio. And reflect on the songwriting process, subject matter, and recording process.
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